Hey people;

I just dont know why but i think this holiday is abit too short for anyone to do anything when you really think about it. Or maybe the problem just lies with me and me alone. Anyways, went out ystd and reached home at like 1145pm? surprised mum didnt say anything though she usually says nothing about me coming home only after 9 to 10pm when i go out esp on weekends(mostly on sat) and holidays. i didnt buy anything though i was outside the whole day(except for a bag that i needed cause mine spoilt) to be specific i was shopping. not alone, duh(i have insecurity problems and i cant make it alone? whatever. i am just not a lone ranger) i was with traci and steph. Traci treated us to sakae sushi! and we walked around orchard till about 6 then traci took her direct bus home. omg. i hardly have any direct bus all the way home pls. steph and i continued walking and we headed to bugis. but to our disappointment, we bought nothing but a few packets of starburst and my bag of course. and what, we got those when we were leaving bugis soon cause we cant possibly go back empty handed isnt it?

I realised that i have a bit of bladder problems these days cause when i was out ystd, i went to the toilet almost 5 times? i was damn irritated and i swear i wished that i could wear diapers or stick the toilet bowl onto my ass or smth. Steph concluded that it is becuase i didnt drink enough water then too heaty. she said it is perfectly normal. hahah. at least i got a little comfort. i was in a stoning mood ystd too! esp at bugis, i felt abit giddy and felt like fainting.

Anyways, the doctor called today at about 7pm. He said the blood test, urine test, ultrasound scan and x-ray i did almost a month ago(i see how fast they are..)because of my frequent stomach pains and my mum getting paranoid and bring to to the doctor, the results are out. And he said that the reports are i cant remember positive or negative, which means nothing wrong. Not sure if it is good news or bad news cause it means that he dont know what is causing me to feel pain most of the time(for those who know me well, you know i always have stomach pains). worse part is my bible study teacher told us on sunday that she is smth like that also, and the doctor told her that they wont exclude the possibility that it may be cancer or smth like that. and usually they wont be able to detect anything even if you go for all sorts of tests and scans and when they are able to see that smth's wrong, it will be alr the most severe and serious stage which is usually incurable. omg. i swear i freaked out when i heard of that. but when the doctor told me like how her doctor told her(not about the cancer part though) i didnt really freaked. but come to think of it now. I AM ONLY 15. strictly 14. i haven even watch my 1st nc16 movie yet. i cant just die like that. not that i am cursing myself. but. its just so real. so many ppl is dying becuse of cancer and even young ppl i have heard died of this. but i haven done anything in my life yet. i haven even taken my 'o's(not tt i want to but this is what i have been working so hard for the past 10 yrs for isnt it?) Ann went almost crazy and she was like:

A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
I WILL CRY EVERYDAY
heelarey says:
omg
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
I DON'T HAVE AN AWESOME FRIEND ANYMORE IF YOU DIE
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
NO BUT SERIOUSLY
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
YOU WILL NOT DIE
heelarey says:
not now lah
heelarey says:
obviously
heelarey says:
but really scare me lah
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
kay
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
just chill
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
and
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
relax
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
everything will be OKAY
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
y are perfectly well
heelarey says:
hahah
heelarey says:
ya
heelarey says:
wait for the worst to come then talk about it
heelarey says:
at the meantime
heelarey says:
enjoy life!
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
okay!
A; Drink up last call before th sunrise sets th scenes, says:
must ah
some content has been cut off to protect ann's welfare and reputation or whatever:P

For almost the 1st time, i will leave this in the hands of God. If he decides its time then goodbye. meanwhile, i shall enjoy life! maybe i am just paranoid and think too much! its not that easy to die anyway? btw, eileen msn-ed me and before i could replied, she went offline-.-

eileen((: says:
woah hilary
eileen((: says:
not bad
eileen((: says:
still online
eileen((: says:
ahha

yes eileen, are you proud of me?
i think this is a longlong post. contrasting to eileen's shortshort post. this will make up to the dont know how many million years of no update and future's not much updating. I THINK THE PEOPLE AROUND ME ROCKS LIKE I DO!

oh yes. my phone spoilt. again.

God, please grant me to learn to be fully dependent on you. Amen.